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She's my sister, my best friend-I would NEVER give up on her, ever. It was my fault they were left behind, so... I have to do everything I can to make up for what they went through. Hilda deserves that. I will never let anyone hurt her again-I can't imagine living the way I did before, without her there. Even when they hated me, it was better than never hearing their voice at all. The world is better with Hilda here. It's fun to act like an annoyed sibling, but I would never truly want her to change-not her jokes, not her cat ways, not her sarcasm, nothing.
I used to hate him. I blamed Ymir and Sky both for me being left behind, unable to escape the prison our kidnappers made for us, and it became blinding rage. I thought: how could he do that? Had he ever cared? What right did they have to find a new family and throw me away? I wanted them to suffer as I had. So fucking stupid... I lost so much of what little time we had left because of that. My brother died too young, and nothing in my life has hurt more. I'd give anything to hear his voice one more time.
He's my dad, but I never knew him. We look way too alike-what the hell am I supposed to feel about that? In a different life, I could love him the way I'm supposed to. But I ended up as a murderer instead.
I only knew her as an infant, my Ashe, a piece of my heart. I catch glimpses of who they grew up to be, and know it was my choice that caused so much pain. I can never be forgiven, Hilda. But I will always love you.
He's kind... knows things I don't... I must be strange to him.
I worry about them.... Good person, though. I trust them.
(I'm not one to believe in letting sleeping dogs lie, but... he is an exception.)
"When you look at someone with rose-tinted glasses, the red flags just look like flags."
She scares him at first, and if he was on eggshells with Grey, he is on glass around Starfall.
However, they show kindness around his trauma surrounding the breach, and it's easier to fall into a tentative companionship.
He knows how disposable he is, though, and he's already seen her prioritize Grey above everyone else. He can't fault her for it, but he's keenly aware of being the third wheel in their apartment.
Starfall has always hated the Foundation's usage of D-Class, and deep down, it pains her to replicate that dynamic with Damian. She just can't prioritize anyone other than Grey; he is her everything. However, they try to be gentle with him, anyway. His trauma is obvious, and on a more selfish note, he helped Grey even when doing so wouldn't benefit him at all. Starfall respects that. They warm up to him in time, but remain aware of the inherently distant nature of their relationship.
Damian at first assumed that Grey was just like the other scientists, but during the Containment Breach, he couldn't turn away from another person who needed help.
After escape, he keeps lowkey expecting the dynamic to return. That of researcher and lab rat. As they hide out in Grey and Starfall's apartment, he walks on eggshells just in case they decide he's not worth it and remove him.
Over time, Grey's kindness eases his worries, and its easier to believe that Grey wasn't like the other scientists.
He's not so naïve that he fails to recognize the unbalanced dynamic between them. However, Grey refuses to think of the two in terms of researcher and D-Class, especially with their split from the Foundation. Damian is his friend-at least, Grey likes to think so. He stubbornly refuses to give space for Starfall's insistence on him being more important; he wants to protect Damian, not cast him aside. That said, Grey is still a rather socially awkward person, so he has frequent trouble talking with the man in a casual manner.
He somewhat knew of Tobias' reputation in the Foundation, and is a little shook by the fact Damian has that necklace in the first place. Once the initial shock wears off, though, Grey in time finds himself rather liking the guy. He's funny for one, and can draw Starfall out of their shell-that's no easy feat. The needling can get embarrassing, but never in a way that really hurts. Grey feels awful over Tobias getting stuck in that jar on multiple occasions, and his awkward attempts at cheering the guy up culminate in the "Friendship Jar" name. He's trying his best, though, and recognizes how uncomfortable this entire situation must be for both Damian and Tobias.
Appreciates Grey's earnest and good nature, but loves to tease him light-heartedly whenever given the ammo to do so.
"So does this mean you're a furry?"
Yes, he's annoying, and yes, she is not above shoving that damn necklace in the Friendship Jar to get him to shut up for awhile. But there is a fondness beneath their petty irritation. Starfall is no stranger to those who use humor as a coping mechanism, and she feels a sort of camaraderie with Tobias that's not too dissimilar from her bond with fellow Coalition members. Besides, they both know what it is like to have one's identity irreversibly tied to an anomaly. In a way, Starfall comes to see them as kindred spirits.
They are a very good at what she does, and he won't deny it. However, the stoic nature is a great temptation, and he can't help but make dumb comments in an attempt to see it break.
(meta note, brain broke, will revisit the quote later, but enjoy this placeholder) "Sorry, I already used the furry joke on Grey, but it works for you too"
(Guilt. Longing for better days. Our smoke breaks, our petty complaints, our joking around. Why did she care so much for me? My worthless, fucking pathetic self didn't deserve that.)
(Even after all these years, little things still remind me of him. Sometimes, not as much as I used to but still, I wonder what I could have done differently.)
What word is there to describe you? I thought myself incapable of caring for anyone any longer. But you make me happy. Is this weakness, or the thing that lets me fight on?
starlit valkyrie,,, <333
My dear friend. He never knows when I'm joking or not, though. Strange.
I can never read her face-and I like to think I'm pretty damn good at that sort of thing! But she's a lovely friend either way.
I have always kept you close to my heart, even after all these years. No matter what I may say to those I care nothing about, I never forgot.
Father... why did you choose this path?
(Fuck romance... but for her, I would be soooo queerplatonic...)
Spring is THE BEST! I love that she takes no shit from anyone!!