Yep, a COVID-19 vent thread

I really hate being out of school cuz of the virus. We're not going back for the rest of the school year, and we're stuck with this stupid Digital Learning thing! It's hard to keep up with my schoolwork in the new method. The seniors aren't even gonna get a proper graduation ceremony this year until the Summertime!! Half of my friend group is leaving me behind and I'm probably never gonna see them for the rest of my life since we're not supposed to be having any get-togethers. I've been trapped with my family for weeks and I love them, but we're starting to drive each other a little crazy. 

On the bright side, though, my mom's been cooking a lot more so we have plenty of home-cooked meals. We didn't get those much before this happened bc she used to get home too late from work. I've also had a LOOOT more time to draw, which is making me more active on here and DA! It's also been motivating to keep up a sleeping schedule since no one's forcing me and I need to be up at a certain time for zoom meetings anyway. 

I'm super scared

Does my dad think I have COVID-19?

Am I really am positive?

I don't know...

finally after 3weeks the goverment decide to release the hotspot location and the district i am staying is the red zone!! and we also went to the market recently that is also another red zone );;;; and then the icing of the cake my office is located at the redzone tooo!! o<-< i have a flu and sneezing ahhh and then there is also ppl with no symptons. this anxiety is too much and also my office is telling on how they gona decrease losses ;;v;;;; now i am worried i might loose my job and im only the one in the family that makes money ;v;;;; ahhh i pray everything will be ok i pray nobody gets infected by this disease and ppl recover ;;v;;;  

Today I challenged the lads who do nothing but hit the rev limiter on their motorbikes "lockdown applies to you too" and their attitude was "lol chill we're 100ft away from you"   

Y'all are also being incredibly selfish - we have several key workers on this street (my mum included) and you're also putting your mum who legitimately lives here at risk. The ringleader of the group used to live here but now lives with his gf but seems to keep tools here as an excuse to keep coming over with his mates. Tbh I'm not convinced the ring leader's mum knows he's been coming over during lockdown because they normally come over when she's out and can't tell them to piss off with no lockdown and leave before she comes back.

I openly admit I wasn't polite (but I have to say it did feel good to say what I've wanted to say to their faces for years). It's annoying enough outside of lockdown but for them to think it's acceptable to come over and flout lockdown just to drink and rev their motorbikes because it's just "hyped up flu" and "everyone else needs to chill" takes the piss.

Either way it's gone to the police and the landlord because I am done with their shit so let's see where this goes.

I can't even go and get my braces tightened :,(( they cancelled my appointment not surprisingly and I feel like Im going nuts on having to ration all my dental supplies. on top of that online classes -anxiety intensifies- so im gonna have to work my butt off until the end of april

lol @ my dumbass state for having to send a football team's plane to get supplies bc the feds swiped what was supposed to be delivered originally... massachusetts is messy but glad it worked out.
99% sure i have covid (hello inability to breathe) but due to needing a referral to get tested and me not having a pcp its impossible to know for sure -__- its making my brain feel even more like mush than usual and thats saying something. BUT on the upside, im getting better! the worst of it passed quick enough and i dont have to cough so goddamn painfully lol. i'm literally desperate to go outside for ANY reason, even just a walk around the block, but i live in an urban area and there's still morons walking around and i Have The Disease so, just gotta hold out and do my laundry in the bathtub lol. who knew i could miss a dirty laundromat so much.

People with kids don't deserve any "special treatment", "extra money", "tax breaks" etc.

You are not a "national hero" just bacause you have kids. If you can't afford them it's solely your problem.

Where did all "kids are happiness" and "it totally worth it" posts went?

Not so happy spending 24/7 with your "precious perfect little angels"? Haha ;3

tbf the only people who deserve special treatment and all that are the people still having to work.

I miss my mom so much. I barely get to see her now, and when I get to see her she has to talk to me through the window of the car, becasue she's immuno-comprimised and I'm still working and I can't risk giving it to her.

I just want to hug her so bad.

Easters coming up too, and it's going to be my first time not being there for easter and I'm really sad. we aren't a religous family, but we love easter, my mom hides over 1000 eggs every year.

I already didn't get to go see her on her birthday because of this too.

I miss her so much it hurts.

Online classes suuck, man. My professors are doing a great job being super understanding, a few even giving extra time for assignments, easier quizzes, and the like, but I just can't focus and stay motivated with online work. It's not even that it's difficult work, which is frustrating, just that I don't focus, and don't really want to even bother with it even though I know it's important. It feels like I have a million and one things to do but little drive to do any of it. I can't just ignore what I need to do for college, I know that, but I feel so much better when I do, less stressed, but that's sure to bite me in the ass if i'm not careful.

I miss short walks on campus going class to class, that downtime to do school work away from home.
I also really miss going to Waffle House :(

Looks like I'm not going back to school. I will miss my friends since I'm in 8th grade and their in 6th grade. I won't be seeing that boy I like for a very long time.

i feel like i died a few weeks ago and everything is falling from my reach. and i haaatttee iiiittt

Getting kind of upset, so this is under a spoiler.

The only upside to this is that I'm spending more time with my mom and my brother!

isolation feels like a fever dream it is so. fucking. weird. I feel like its the weekend and should end. but overall I took on a lot of art and am trying to stay sane haha.