Post as your OC's 'Shadow Self'

Posted 6 years, 10 months ago (Edited 6 years, 10 months ago) by Kim 'Kimiko' Madison YunaNoire

I'm not sure if this has already been done, but I thought I thought it'd be a cool idea! Basically, in this topic you make a post as an OC's 'Shadow Self'. For a further explanation, a 'Shadow Self' is the side of ourselves that we like to repress and pretend doesn't exist. However, that side of you is, of course, still you. So for this topic, think about your characters and what sort of thoughts, emotions or feelings they might be hiding from everyone else. Then, personify that into a 'Shadow Self' version of your character, who embodies everything they'd rather hide or deny about themselves.

Rules:

This doesn't necessarily have anything to do with any secrets your character might have, although there is a good chance they might tie into their repressed Shadow Self.
Blank out any content that could be deemed sensitive or NSFW. Like this.
Write as much or as little as you need to! This is just a fun little exercise to help develop your characters.
Have fun!

To provide an example, here's Kimiko's Shadow Self:

"I am a shadow... the true self! God... all I want is for people to just tell me how much they love me. If I have to lie a little bit to get them to do that, then so be it! I'm so lucky to have some pretty gullible friends... if they knew how much of a sham I was, it'd be all over for me! That's what I am, a sham, a fraud! And I love it! So why should I stop? Because it isn't right to lie? Because tricking people is wrong? As if that'll make me stop! Without these lies, i'm nothing! Just a dumb otaku, without any real friends or a real job.

Lying gets me exactly what I need out of life. There's no way i'll stop... i'll never stop."

Arcatt Uhe canofbees

"I am a shadow . . . The true self . . ."

"It gets pretty lonely, up on top. Being a prince should make me happy - it seems pretty cool, right? Doing whatever you want, whenever you want? But it's absolutely boring, and at home, I wasn't even allowed to meet people outside of the court. I didn't have time, between business and the grand galas. It was the same thing, day after day, for years. Ugh."

"It's much more fun to travel. Sure, I've made a few promises that I haven't kept, but it's been anything but boring! I'm having fun, for once, and I won't let some random nobody ruin it by trying to make 'friends' with me. I may not enjoy the rules of prince-hood, but I love the power. I'll keep doing whatever I want, forever . . ."

Selena Mavis FreeFallingUp13

"I am a shadow... The true self..."

"And I... hate... humans."
"So often demons die and get hurt just for their sakes, and what do they get in return? They get scorned. Turned away. Discriminated against. We hold so much power and yet we're treated as the lowest of the low. Time and time again we prove that all we want is for them to be free and they hate us."

"... But the demons hate me too. I might be a demon, but I'm human, too. And that's all they see, no matter what I do. They just see a weak, ungrateful human to be laughed at like all the others. I... I'm one of them, aren't I? And I'm my father's daughter... They were supposed to accept me like humans never did. That's what was supposed to happen when I moved here."
"I wish I was respected. No - I deserve their respect. Why... why don't they give it to me?... What have I done wrong?"

Eisla Summers -bluejay-

"Everyone thinks I'm this poor, troubled little angel that never knowingly did anything to anyone, but I know exactly what I'm doing. I went into that battle with every intention of ripping that bastard's head from his body, and that's what I did. I wasn't planning on killing Sayumi too, but she was just a fun little bonus. After we all got back home and I stopped leaving the house, everyone just assumed it was because I regretted it. I don't, not even a little bit. If I could go back in time, I'd do it again a thousand times over. They both deserved to die. Hell, I should've made it more painful."

"And that whole thing with Doe? Of course I knew they weren't being honest with me! They're not as good at lying as they think they are. I mean, I wasn't expecting to end up wandering through limbo for months, but I figured out pretty fast that they were just using me to get to my friends. It's not like I wanted them to get hurt, but I couldn't have cared less at the time. Even after Andie told me just how much everyone had suffered because of Doe, I couldn't find it in myself to really feel guilty."

"...Actually, I guess there's one thing I do feel genuinely sorry for, and that's Otto. He didn't deserve to die. It should have been Anna instead."

Moved Jules

"I am my own shadow. The true self I repress hard. The side that sometimes even frightens me. The only side my dad ever sees. It hurts. It hurts thinking that my dad raised me alone. It hurted when I saw how his relationships never ended gold. It hurted a lot when I have heard that one of his exes wounded him with a glass bottle and tried to kill me. All of my past experiences made me the way I am now. Sarcastic, aggressive. Not a good person to have around. I often have days where I would like to just...break down and cry. But...I can't. Men are not allowed to cry. Or show emotions. Sickening."

Marith sunkissedklutz

"I am the shadow, the true self."

(tw for sexual assault.)

"I know not everyone here is truly sick or hurt. At least, physically. Those twisted, horrid few who just come to stare at me and think I can't tell what their eyes are screaming for? In the beginning, I just wanted to see what it felt like. But consent from a robotic pony nurse doesn't seem to carry the same meaning to the guys who lock their doors as I check their readings. No amount of stops or screams will keep them away, and no one else bothers to care. When I got the new patch installed, everyone knows to steer clear. But I know I'll never be able to delete those memories. Their faces, full of absolute greed and lust as I can fell myself breaking. I know they still think of me as a fucktoy."

Malka aaawhyme

"I am a shadow, the true self...

I know what I've done... I know that I'm deserving. Deserving of punishment, of my capture and my torment. I know I'm at fault for all their deaths, and the deaths of those that came before... but I can't admit it ... not to anyone, not even once! If I do, then I'm admitting it to myself- a-and I don't think I could handle that. I think I would break.

I feel so alone all the time, even though my powers make everyone love me. It's a false love, and I know it. Why can't they love me for real? I just want to be loved... How do I be good? How can I be selfless? Is redemption possible for me?

I- I'm sorry! I'm so sorry, for everything!!"

Phillip London qualityghost

“I am a shadow, the true self.

That bitch. That bitch. That. Bitch. They think they can use me, and they DO use me. ‘Oh, he’s just an object! He won’t complain.’

I want them to GO AWAY. Leave me and 888 alone. And... JUST STOP IT. PLEASE. I WANT TO BE LOVED. WHY CAN’T YOU BASTARDS SHOW SLIGHT RESPECT? I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU SO MUCH.”

Aria Moonlight 0303NEET

"I am the shadow and the true self...

Being a magician has never been easy especially if you're a normal human wearing a silly hat and having no special powers compared to all fairies and the high elves , spirits, gods and al kinds of things people are anything but human. I just feel really alone , not being able to fit in with the humans because they look at me with strange eyes nor with any mystical entity where they just laugh me off as punny... I try my best studying magic and understanding them as well as recreating spells , sometimes staying up until morning still trying to figure out how i should abandon my humanity. BUt for real Im just some imposter witch that can do no magic how hard I even try . "

Revenant sableward

I am the shadow, the true self...

And you will not hurt us again.

Blair Aarix

“I am a shadow, the true self!

"...Gah, who am I kiddin', I'm always like this. No point in keepin' secret depths when it's just shit all the way down. Ah, but Jaydn's kind of fetching. Maybe I just like stuff that's good at killin' people, hah."