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alyssia
9. Humiliating memories
probably the worst one is when she made a contract with madeleine - alyssia had a panic attack in the ballroom at an event, in front of everyone, and ran out. she ran around the corridors and into the cellar, and it was likely that she couldn't see anything both because of the low lighting and because of how frantic her anxiety levels were. being a duchess, she was of a greater status than most people in the room, so something like that would have definitely been embarrassing.
after all of that, when she found her way out the back entrance, she ran into a nearby forest (one known for summoning "spirits", aka the demons that make a contract with whoever summons them) and was "found" (her screams summoned madeleine, as a demon will be present in a scenario of distress) by miss apollyn, who made a contract with her there and then. she remembers barely any of that night, and from what she does remember, she feels extremely humiliated at the thought of making such a bad impression on so many people at once.
11. Bad or petty habits
- scab picking, mainly on her arms where the needle pricks and scratches are. thankfully, her gloves are usually long enough to cover it up, but reopening scabs causes blood to leak out, which she gets punished for as getting blood on her dresses would ruin them.
- zoning out, when she's talking face-to-face with people, her eyes drift and she tunes out completely. her medication is one of the contributors to her being so dazed like this all of the time.