Sure, I threw the fight for Sprig. Midway through the tournament I realized I didn't really want Commander, haha, but I didn't want to give up to just anyone. But then I realized I was in the finals! Oh, Sprig? Yeah I don't give a shit about him.
Trapetsiya, I swear - look, he's not an egotistical fuckface, and that's the only thing he has going for him, considering how many years he's broken the rules behind my back. I get it, he's lonely, but is it really so hard to understand and achieve personal sacrifice for the greater good?
Kolo seems so very sad all of the time. I wish I could express to him that I just wish to be friends, to give him a piece of comfort in this dark world, yet he rejects my offers at every turn. It saddens me.
Prizma was allowed to keep his TImelines... I still mildly regret doing so, but what was my other option? Strip a Mag of their one goal and quest in life? I just wish I knew him better, enough to draw his attention back towards home and not out among mortals.
Oh, hm, Kolo? He's not that hard to work with. Plead how close to your heart a lil' thing is, and he ends up cracking juuuust enough. Of course if you beg for world domination, he holds out just fine, but he's got some gooeyness behind his cold mask!
Oh, please. I'll listen to Kolo - I'm not a mutineer - but I make my displeasure with some of his decisions very clear. I should've guessed he would've gone running to be Dijamant's lapdog, given enough time.
It wasn't until recently that I caught on something's off with Kva. Not, like, he's evil or something. But I'm beginning to wonder how deep a well of self-dislike runs in him, considering the way he squirms sometimes when I'm getting too harsh. I've tried to lighten up. He's not a bad guy. Just forgets mortal/Mag boundaries sometimes.
Kolo? Yeah, he can definitely be too much of a... um... like, a hardass sometimes. It's not really his fault I don't think but I don't really agree with him or his methods either. Maybe he's not a bad guy, but he sure acts like one.
Trougao... I have so much to say to him. "I'm sorry I didn't come sooner," is at the top of that list. I could've saved him so much suffering. And I don't have a good excuse - what, scared of what Bereave would retaliate with? Ugh. And it's so hard, to look at him, and think; "We shared so much, you know how awful he was, too." But it's too forward to just say that, or insinuate that we went through the same trauma. It's too complicated.
I owe Kolo my life. I owe Kolo my existence. My mind, my freedom, my second chance. He's my guardian angel, even if he's too modest to really accept the title. I give him the space he asks for, but... it's hard to think about what my life would be like if he wasn't there.
Zmeya is... I see a lot of myself in him. A scared kid, except I hide every inch of mine and Zmeya can't bear to bottle himself. I can't really blame him. I don't know what Genesis is doing to his brain. But it does make me envious... to see him so freely wallowing in his feelings, and having others validate them and care for him... but I know it's wrong of me.
Kolo is... well... um... he's important... and our boss... and I don't know him well, but he doesn't seem bad. ...He can't be bad, if he helps make sure... that nobody does anything evil. Right? Yeah, I think so... yeah.
Vodo. He's... well, new. Learning about Bereave being alive in his brain has discolored my opinion of him, which I know is shitty - it's not his fault and he does a fine job containing Bereave. But it's hard to look at him and not think, "Bereave is looking through his eyes right now at me...." why'd such an endearing Mag have to get stuck with Bereave of all people?
Ah, I do enjoy my dear friend Kolo's wisdom and advice, but it is hard to open an ear to him when Bereave has so much to simmer in private! One day I hope to bridge that gap between them, therefore to help heal those primal wounds once inflicted! Only then, perhaps, may they move forth.
I'm grateful Ren is back. I never really feared losing control over him, considering Jubilee leashed him rather tightly, but the anxiety was never quite quelled. I did not miss his... eccentricism, however. Ugh. It's fucking annoying.
Kinda sucks being under Pya - and by extension, Kolo's - thumb again, but it's not so bad when I got the rest of the Mags with me! I missed seeing everyone, even annoying Kolo, with his really dumb annoying nagging.
A familiar, warm face. Linija was the first person I ever met and the first I knew, and it's hard to shake a bond like that, despite the fact that our friend groups are fairly discrete. We don't talk often, but we get along well, and I find his presence soothing.
Kolo? Yeah, we go way and way back. Love the guy, even if he's holed up in his head a lot. He's got a cute grin if you can squeeze it outta him and it's nice to see him relax once in a while. Smart, too, fun to debate with and talk to.
Kolo has a lot of pent-up feelings and thoughts that he never expresses, so I like giving him a space to express those secret emotions! He doesn't always appreciate someone knowing him as well as I do, but hey, that's what friends are for!
Ugh. I wish I had more to say about Polum that wasn't vitriol. But his actions are downright evil. I can tolerate it - barely - through sheer will, but the line is very thin and the moment he steps over it I will learn dream magic solely to rein him in. It's really a disappointment he had to take the path he did. Egoists, the lot of us.
I'm relieved Chetyre and Linija seem to be on a better footing with each other. I was worried Linija would steamroll Chetyre, considering how meek he tends to be. I don't really... interact with him much, outside of occasionally giving directions for something. He's passive and keeps to himself.
Kolo has the kind of force of personality and strength I really admire, that um, I'd really like to have. He's always so, well, in control of himself and, basically, everyone around him. It's impressive....
I like to hope that I trust Srce, but his lack of... complete control over himself and high emotions stresses me. I guess I see similarities in us, and I don't like the road Srce's gone down. But I know he self-flagellates fairly openly, so I don't want to add fuel to his fire.
Kolo has always been very polite, but distant to me. It's clear he's keeping space between us, though it's hard to place why. I'm sure I've offended him terribly somehow, which is just my luck. I wish he'd tell me... I promise I didn't mean to hurt you, Kolo!
Suza... I wouldn't call him dependable, but he is trustworthy. I know he's probably spilling a bit too much information to lower Fragments, but he's the best I could give to Jubilee at short notice. And he's not a bad person. I-I promise I don't normally think of people in terms of tools.
Ellipsa and I are relatively close - as close as I can hope to be, most of the time. He's kind, he's a good listener. He puts plenty of effort into a relationship with me... which I appreciate. I know I don't reciprocate enough.
Kolo's a good friend of mine, in my opinion at least. He's a sweet guy under a really rough exterior - though enough of his real nature shines through. He's someone I want to know more about, despite how closed-off and private he is.
Y'know, Sessy and I bump into each other a lot. I don't mind - he can be a little prickly if he's busy, but he's smart and I like hearing what he's got to say, especially about the politics of the regions we're in.
Polly is uncooperative. Polly is uncaring. Polly throws everything in this life that matters to the wind and laughs about it. Though I'm immensely frustrated by his apathy... to some extent, I am jealous of his ability to let go.
I want Pya to be happy. I know it's my fault - I let things slip whenever I was younger that he took too deeply to heart. I guess it's just another thing to add to the list, but now isn't the time to dwell on that. I'll... I can at least take the blows for him when it comes to being the disciplinarian.
Oh, Kolo - oh, I know I've put too much on him. But I'm too much of a coward to step up and apologize, or even take the responsibility off of him. He must hate me, more than anything. At least now he has someone in his court....
I am grateful for Trougao's return, though I regret not being part of the coalition to save him. I suppose, being off running the Hive, Kolo did not think to "bother" me with an invitation to help. Regardless, I'm happy to see him adapting to the world he missed out on, and I enjoy his new sense of style. It's endearing.
Zmeya requires care and therapy, that much is obvious to anyone who looks at him. I disagree with the idea that he is fine "taking it slowly" at Jedana's pace - Jedana is a caring, smart man, but Zmeya needs intensive care, not coddling. Sigh. I keep my tongue held, though.
Vodovorot is unique. I don't have a good grasp of many of my younger peers due to my absences, but he seems to be a very fine young Mag. Upstanding, eager to participate in the community, and energetic; all traits becoming of gods like we.